Hmmm Dating its …..

I went on an impromptu date last night to a sushi place. It was cool. I do enjoy the Veteran conversation. I am getting use to his mannerisms; he has a habit of being slightly effeminate.  He moves his hands a lot, rolls his eyes. He makes for good conversations, until he shows his racist card. I had a $20 Gift certificate to the Sushi place and I tried to order just enough I really didn’t want to go over $30.   Talking we touched on topic such as skin color and its effects on Black culture, Star Trek and if it’s a remake or an inversion of the Wrath of Khan.  We talked about the food and other things. He is quite awkward, and admits he has a monotone voice and is corny. I appreciate the honesty, it fine with me I am allowed to be myself around him. Here is where the issue lies, when the bill came out. It was $17, I asked if he wanted to split it and he turned his face up in a disgusting no she did not just ask me to pay manner. Was I in the wrong? I mean I asked if he wanted to join me for dinner?  I don’t mind but I am the one with gift certificate.  When he invited me out to dinner last time, we split the bill. He did not even offer to pick up the whole bill and I was actually low on money that time.  He order more food than me and was I wrong to expect him to pay less than $10. I was not completely sure.  I do know this left me with a bad taste in my mouth. One that makes me wonders about the state of dating in America. Has all the need to push and have equal right killed chivalry? The veteran may have lost out on the lemongrass date due to his … moment. Its cool he didn’t even offer me a chance to go to a Wine tasting.  Well tonight I will be going out on another date with an old… flame… acquaintance.  I am not sure how to categorize him. I hop maybe I can make the right strides with him. I went on two dates with him back in 2009/10. I feel like I struck out each time. The first time I picked a too expensive restaurant trying to impress and almost broke my budget. The second time, I picked a cheap place but had left over food which he looked down on. I don’t know why I am trying for date after almost 2 years of non-communication. I hope that I matured and feel more comfortable around him. He makes me nervous, and anxious. If not I chalk it up to at least I tired which always makes me feel slightly better.