So last night I went on a date with a dude I attempted to date three years ago. It was during my infamous, I still want my ex but I have to date other men to make sure. During that time me and said Ex was over, but once a month we texted each other or call. I still was in love and holding out hope we would be together after we lived life. During that time I was trying Craigslist out for dating. I was so happy that I did not get killed or stalked by anyone I met off of Craigslist. One of the men I met, we will call him King for confidential sake, was interesting. His post read like he was genuine, funny, intellectual, and normal. I emailed him and we talked/ texted each other. We seem to have some stuff in common, such as martial art movies, video games, love for technology. I should state even though I don’t stay super current with my tech gadgets it because I rather save money in my bank account. I am always reading different technology websites, and blogs. We finally went on a first date and it tanked horribly. My fault I suppose, I chose a restaurant that was out of my budget. He mumbled and I could barely read lips. I was nervous and my friends kept texting me to make sure I was ok. I was unsure to say we should hug or we should get drinks. My attire was meh. I remember I wore my dark blue jeans, with a black shirt and a pinstripe vest. My hair was as always rebelling against lying flat. I realized my hair enjoys defying gravity. The date end and I felt as though I failed horribly. We had a few more dates, but I figured he wanted a more sophisticated, mature, self-confident, and less awkward woman.
We sort of lost contact and my Ex proceed to return to my life just to leave again. Well we reconnected and tried to go on a date again. I think in life there are some people who first date are to fail miserably. The Second attempt of this date failed just as bad. We went to a movie Screener down in DC it was so overbooked like if the theater held 500 they had 1000 people there. He did allude that he would have come much earlier to stake out a seat. Strike one on me. We talked and laughed while we waited for the bad news. I enjoyed the conversation and he was still witty. I like the fact he automatically seemed like a protector, maybe it’s his stance or presence but I always felt safe around him. Even though he said if I popped off at the mouth I was on my own. When we left I suggest going to the Indian Chipotle style restaurant Mehrzi. He didn’t seem thrilled so I suggested Astro doughnuts and chicken. Even though I knew it was closed they closed as soon as they sell out. We continued to talk he always stayed to the right of me. I thank his mother and other females who raised him right. When we got to the metro station, I admitted I was unsure what to do should I fist bump, handshake or hug him. I really wanted to kiss him passionately and whisper “Take me home with you” but I am trying to be a lady. He looked at me and said “You really are awkward.” He hugged me there was no pat on the back and we departed. I told him the next time he has to plan it, every time I tried it failed horribly. He smiled. I did a polite text saying hey it was nice seeing him again and don’t be a stranger. Followed by a meme I found that said “I don’t need to flirt. I will seduce you with my awkwardness” His response was that sound about right.
I won’t sugar coat it , I wish Me and King would work out. He is the very definition of the type of man I want. Thinking back on it, he probably the reason, I knew that I and my EX was not a good fit. King just has a way about him sot smug or arrogant just confident. He is successful, lived his life, likes to have fun but he not out all the time. He is sarcastic and witty but not to the point where its mean or venom filled. When I am around him I feel safe and like I can be me. The drawback he a catch and he knows it so, you have to be special to get him to settle down. I am not sure he is ready to settle down or if I am what he is looking for in a woman. This is not to put myself down, but Men have types or attributes they want in woman also. If I have 6 out of 10 well, there a good chance he can find someone that has 8 out of 10. He likes his privacy. He once told me that once I accepted who I was my anxiousness would decrease and my self-confidence would increase. He was right. Truthfully, maybe he just my reminder, that I don’t have to settle for any man out there, that men like him exist and I just have to have patience. I really hope I can get a second-second date. Like I told him I will seduce him with my Awkwardness.
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