wait but why: 10 Types of 30-Year-Old Single Guys

wait but why: 10 Types of 30-Year-Old Single Guys: 30-year-old guys are a curious bunch. Find me a group of 30-year-old men and I'll pick out one overgrown frat dude living with roomma...

Crazy Dreams

Dreams about Exes

I have dreams about my exes a lot. I don’t know maybe it’s my subconscious not happy that I continuously fail at relationships and it force me to re-evaluate what I may or may not be doing that chases these men away. This dream was quite interesting.  I was in my old house and I was talking to my ex trying to see if we could get back together. He said he was interested in another woman who had a daughter about his daughter age. That she was what he preferred, curvy and hood. I was sad, but I kept pleading my case. Than two young girls about 10-15 came in the room.  The woman he was interested in who was fairer skin than me. My ex had professed he likes brown skin curvy woman. This always made me smile. The new woman throw me off, but all of a sudden his ex-wife came in  in a suit and heels. She was short and round,( I have never seen a picture of her so I am unsure). He started kissing on the other woman. His ex-wife looked at me and said “You should have known you was the rebound. You are only good enough to be a mistress.” I woke from that dream with an urge to pee, which I was unable to do, because my mom was on the toilet.

Date #2 with a Previous Dater

So last night I went on a date with a dude I attempted to date three years ago. It was during my infamous, I still want my ex but I have to date other men to make sure. During that time me and said Ex was over, but once a month we texted each other or call. I still was in love and holding out hope we would be together after we lived life.  During that time I was trying Craigslist out for dating. I was so happy that I did not get killed or stalked by anyone I met off of Craigslist.  One of the men I met, we will call him King for confidential sake, was interesting. His post read like he was genuine, funny, intellectual, and normal.  I emailed him and we talked/ texted each other. We seem to have some stuff  in common, such as martial art movies, video games, love for technology. I should state even though I don’t stay super current with my tech gadgets it because I rather save money in my bank account. I am always reading different technology websites, and blogs.  We finally went on a first date and it tanked horribly. My fault I suppose, I chose a restaurant that was out of my budget. He mumbled and I could barely read lips. I was nervous and my friends kept texting me to make sure I was ok. I was unsure to say we should hug or we should get drinks. My attire was meh. I remember I wore my dark blue jeans, with a black shirt and a pinstripe vest. My hair was as always rebelling against lying flat. I realized my hair enjoys defying gravity.  The date end and I felt as though I failed horribly. We had a few more dates, but I figured he wanted a more sophisticated, mature, self-confident, and less awkward woman.

We sort of lost contact and my Ex proceed to return to my life just to leave again.  Well we reconnected and tried to go on a date again. I think in life there are some people who first date are to fail miserably.  The Second attempt of this date failed just as bad. We went to a movie Screener down in DC it was so overbooked like if the theater held 500 they had 1000 people there. He did allude that he would have come much earlier to stake out a seat. Strike one on me.  We talked and laughed while we waited for the bad news. I enjoyed the conversation and he was still witty.  I like the fact he automatically seemed like a protector, maybe it’s his stance or presence but I always felt safe around him. Even though he said if I popped off at the mouth I was on my own.  When we left I suggest going to the Indian Chipotle style restaurant Mehrzi.  He didn’t seem thrilled so I suggested Astro doughnuts and chicken. Even though I knew it was closed they closed as soon as they sell out.  We continued to talk he always stayed to the right of me. I thank his mother and other females who raised him right. When we got to the metro station, I admitted I was unsure what to do should I fist bump, handshake or hug him. I really wanted to kiss him passionately and whisper “Take me home with you” but I am trying to be a lady.  He looked at me and said “You really are awkward.” He hugged me there was no pat on the back and we departed. I told him the next time he has to plan it, every time I tried it failed horribly.  He smiled.   I did a polite text saying hey it was nice seeing him again and don’t be a stranger.  Followed by a meme I found that said “I don’t need to flirt. I will seduce you with my awkwardness” His response was that sound about right. 

I won’t sugar coat it , I wish Me and King would work out. He is the very definition of the type of man I want. Thinking back on it, he probably the reason, I knew that I and my EX was not a good fit.  King just has a way about him sot smug or arrogant just confident.  He is successful, lived his life, likes to have fun but he not out all the time. He is sarcastic and witty but not to the point where its mean or venom filled.  When I am around him I feel safe and like I can be me. The drawback he a catch and he knows it so, you have to be special to get him to settle down. I am not sure he is ready to settle down or if I am what he is looking for in a woman.  This is not to put myself down, but Men have types or attributes they want in woman also. If I have 6 out of 10 well, there a good chance he can find someone that has 8 out of 10. He likes his privacy. He once told me that once I accepted who I was my anxiousness would decrease and my self-confidence would increase. He was right. Truthfully, maybe he just my reminder, that I don’t have to settle for any man out there, that men like him exist and I just have to have patience.  I really hope I can get a second-second date. Like I told him I will seduce him with my Awkwardness.

Hmmm Dating its …..

I went on an impromptu date last night to a sushi place. It was cool. I do enjoy the Veteran conversation. I am getting use to his mannerisms; he has a habit of being slightly effeminate.  He moves his hands a lot, rolls his eyes. He makes for good conversations, until he shows his racist card. I had a $20 Gift certificate to the Sushi place and I tried to order just enough I really didn’t want to go over $30.   Talking we touched on topic such as skin color and its effects on Black culture, Star Trek and if it’s a remake or an inversion of the Wrath of Khan.  We talked about the food and other things. He is quite awkward, and admits he has a monotone voice and is corny. I appreciate the honesty, it fine with me I am allowed to be myself around him. Here is where the issue lies, when the bill came out. It was $17, I asked if he wanted to split it and he turned his face up in a disgusting no she did not just ask me to pay manner. Was I in the wrong? I mean I asked if he wanted to join me for dinner?  I don’t mind but I am the one with gift certificate.  When he invited me out to dinner last time, we split the bill. He did not even offer to pick up the whole bill and I was actually low on money that time.  He order more food than me and was I wrong to expect him to pay less than $10. I was not completely sure.  I do know this left me with a bad taste in my mouth. One that makes me wonders about the state of dating in America. Has all the need to push and have equal right killed chivalry? The veteran may have lost out on the lemongrass date due to his … moment. Its cool he didn’t even offer me a chance to go to a Wine tasting.  Well tonight I will be going out on another date with an old… flame… acquaintance.  I am not sure how to categorize him. I hop maybe I can make the right strides with him. I went on two dates with him back in 2009/10. I feel like I struck out each time. The first time I picked a too expensive restaurant trying to impress and almost broke my budget. The second time, I picked a cheap place but had left over food which he looked down on. I don’t know why I am trying for date after almost 2 years of non-communication. I hope that I matured and feel more comfortable around him. He makes me nervous, and anxious. If not I chalk it up to at least I tired which always makes me feel slightly better.

Shows that are being cancelled this year or are already cancelled.

Deception (NBC): Cancelled. Saw that coming it was too complicated.

Animal Practice (NBC): Put down. DAMN but it wasn only ha funny instead of ha ha funny. It would have done better on TBS or comedy central.

Do No Harm (NBC): Harmed.  Again its was cool just too complicated in my opinion. 

30 Rock (NBC): Over. It had a good run. I will miss Liz Lemon and Jack Doughay

Guys with Kids (NBC): You can’t believe how cancelled this is. Again it was competiting with New Girl and Mindy Project. It had a good premise but not a good flow.

The Office (NBC): Closed. It went two seasons tooo long. It made me love Craig Robinson more.

Smash (NBC): Smushed. I knew it was going to happen I thought it would happen last year.

Up All Night (NBC): Christina Applegate quit: This was cancelled … by its own star! DAMN! WHY! I guess it wasn't going the direction she wanted.

Whitney (NBC): Thankfully. WHY? But WHY? I loved this show it was witty, different and a throwback to the 80's style of comedy.

1600 Penn (NBC): Impeached. I can't believe it was stopped after the pilot. Maybe its me it was just tooo goofy. It would have had a better home on the CW on Sunday night at 7:30 pm.

Made in Jersey (CBS): Terminated. LOL. LOL. USA has better shows.

Private Practice (ABC): Spin-off heaven. Again it went one too many seasons. 

Partners (CBS): Dumped.  It just was not on a good nioght. it could have worked with a better comedy line up like Wed or Friday.

Ben & Kate (Fox): & Cancelled. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooo! I am extremely sorry about this. I love this show. I could see it going place and had potetial to grow. This is what happen to funny witty comedies.

Vegas (CBS): Lost. Yeah IDK why did it make it this far.

Go On (NBC): Get out. NOOOOO. Matthew Perry comes up with good shows and ideas but I guess people don't get it. Please do what Courtney Cox did and find a Cable station. The world not ready for your type of comedy.

Fringe (Fox): R.I.P. One season tooo long.

Touch (Fox): Touchable. It was too complicated for basic americans, besides Jack Bauer you have to save the world not you son.

The Job (CBS): What? I never even heard of this show...

The Mob Doctor (Fox): Ha! That title. Yeah. Deceased. This show should have been on CBS it has the right audeince and it would have understood the time slot that would be best for it. Fox is not good at programming and time slots.

Don’t Trust the B– in Apt. 23 (ABC): Speaking of: Did anyone really believe a comedy with “B—-” in the title was going to last? I was hoping it would I mean it was quite funny and I loved Zooey. It had potential. I mean it made it to a second season.

666 Park Avenue (ABC): Hellbound. I am sorry you would have been awesom on SyFy, they would have known the audience and would have sold you for what you were not an upscale drama. 

Last Resort (ABC): Indeed. This should have been a mini series.... Come on ABC it ok to do mini series it would have been good and you could have developed it better.

Rules of Engagement (CBS): Broken. LOL. I can't believe that you lasted this long at all. WHAT in the world. Don't get me wrong some of your shows were funny but truthfully you should have lasted 3 seasons.

Golden Boy (CBS): Tarnished. Huh? This was a Show....

CSI: NY (CBS): Two down, one to go. Thank Goodness. You are not this decades Law and Order.

Zero Hour (ABC): Zero something all right. What? This was a show?

Emily Owens, M.D. (The CW): Crashed. They sold you as a comedy instead of a drama. The producers should have asked Shonda Rhimes for advice! 

How to Live with Your Parents (ABC): Evicted. It just got started! ABC this should have been a win you should move it to ABC family!

Red Widow (ABC): Exterminated. What? Another show I knew nothing about!

Body of Proof (ABC): D.O.A. Potential but not a good audience. ABC again stop with reality TV and cultivate good quality Shows.

The New Normal (NBC): Or not. NOooooooo!!! I wanted to see how Bryan handled a toddler, Shanea see if she contiues quirky or blossoms. NeNe was good int his show. NBC I expected better from you seriously!

Family Tools (ABC): Put away. Blank stare this was a show?

Malibu Country (ABC): Overthrown. Again I think you would have done better on cable TV like TV Land or ABC family.

Happy Endings (ABC): Until this happened. ABC you just want to ge rid of the 25-35 crowd! This was a show that was funny, zany and quite honestly LOL. It could go up against New Girl if you kept it on one night.

90210 (The CW): Finished. Thank goodness. I am sorry this show doesn't hold a candle to the real 90210.

 

Cult (The CW): Unfollowed. ... This was a show... Hmmm I must not wathc TV.

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THESE ARE SOME SHOWS STILL ON BUBBLE OR FATE UNCONFIRMED

Sunday Night _ another craptastic Poem

Sunday Night

I sit here on a Sunday night. 
Missing you. 
Wanting you. 
Haven't found nobody to replace you.
I really don't want anyone to replace you. 
But this feeing I feel is pointless. 
I missed your smile, your kiss, your laugh. 
Your happy now, without me. 
Who am I to mess with your peace.
 My selfishness leaves me in a place of hurt. 
I want you in my life. 
Tears forming and my  heart is hurting.
It's my fault. 
My happiness means nothing while I place your feelings above mine? 
Sadness pain just any object of sex.. 

I miss you-- poem ( its bad)

I miss you.
I hate those words. 
He said them to me last night. 
I miss you. 
But do you miss me or miss my body. 
Do you miss my laugh my humor.
 Or you just miss my body my legs. 
You miss my kiss. Soft and sweet. 
You miss my hands as they trace across your back.
 You don't miss me
You miss my body how my legs engulf you. 
How my lips entice you. You miss the wet and warmth. 
You don't miss me.