Random thought (may have published this already)

Random Thoughts:

So this weekend I went white Water Rafting. May I say it was so fun and relaxing, it helped me get my
mind focused for the next week. While we were rolling down the river, I noticed a beautiful waterfall off
to the side. I said to the group that would be a nice place to propose to someone at. I mean the media
makes it seem like proposals are what every little girl dreams about from birth. I am sorry to say, my
dream from birth was to be a researcher and have my own place. As I get older, I can see why it would
be nice to have a man or my significant other take the time and propose somewhere nice and make
it heartfelt. I digress, two of the men I was with loudly said that was too much. I asked why and their
response was sub-par with statements such as “She better be happy that I brought a ring” or “What if it
was Detroit under the Robocop statue?” My first thought was and you wonder why you are single. My
next thought is why not make a nice gesture of asking for a “Lifetime commitment”. I feel men seem
to hate all idea of weddings, engagements, and marriage but love the idea of companionship. I cannot
speak for most women but the idea of committing to one person for life is a big deal, it’s like buying a
house, having a kid, donating a kidney. I think if you decide that the person you are with is someone you
want to spend 5 years-infinite with than why not a nice proposal. I am NOT SAYING spend hundreds, or
thousands of dollars. I am saying a little thought and effort. Here are a few ideas:

Scenerio #1: Propose to her on top of hill. My two good friends went to a local hill in Baltimore. They sat
on the benches overlooking parts of the harbor and did an outdoor bible study. She remembers that he
kept reading scriptures about love, marriage and finding the right woman. He proposed to her on the
hill, which is also the hill that they meet.

Now was that expensive? No. Was it meaningful? Yes.

Scenerio #2: Another friend husband slipped the engagement ring on her finger while she slept.

Was it Creepy? Yes but He knew that he wanted to be with her.

I don’t have too many other incidents like that but I think a simple proposal that is heartfelt and genuine
is super awesome versus the traditional restaurant and dinner. Everyone does that put a little effort into
it that all I think. Maybe I ask for too much. I rather ask for the Universe and get the world than ask for
little and get nothing.

Getting back to Me... Again.

Getting back to my old self:

Last year I did something amazing I worked out and saw results. I loved how my body was transforming and tried to keep it up well. A year later and I put back the weight and I am so disappointed. I wish I could say it was overeating, under eating, stress stop working out. It is a combination of stuff. So 2012 I have been doing my best to lose the weight and watch how I eat.  I realized a few things and I tried to tackle them.

1.       I let people talk me out of my mostly fruit and veggie diet.  I don’t know how but I am happiest when I eat 65% of Fruit and veggies not meat. My body feels cleaner and healthier. I feel happier.

2.       The demands on life and work got bigger. I tried to avoid junk and fast food but I had to work late, stay up late, never had time to focus on me.

3.       My family doesn’t get or want to understand sharing a refrigerator. I love my family but there is never real room for me to put food I like in the fridge, no salads, no cucumbers, no fresh fruit.

4.       It doesn’t help trying to lose or maintain weight when you don’t have people who support you.  No offense to my friends but only some of them will say hey you picked up weight or go running to the gym/ outside with me.  Not only that most people don’t eat healthy or think you are a freak when you only want veggies.

5.       I am lazy and none of the above matter.  Look I worked out hard to keep a man that didn’t love me. I worked out hard to keep my mind of the failures in my life. Once things stated to get better. I found someone that made me smile like a Cheshire cat I got lazy and my workouts got soft.

So how do I get back on track? Well I can thank Apple Apps, Nike and all the fitness and diet apps. Well first I forced myself to make a decision do I want to go down the traditional path of being overweight before 30 and not able to run or fit my clothes. Do I want to be happy with my body?  Well I decide to commit to tracking my food and working out.  By tracking my food I identify some of my poor habits.  Working out is easy cause I like it but it about making it work for me.

The past month I worked out at least 5 times a week. Either weight training, cardio or both someday were better than others. I also start to use the Lose it App to track my eating. Most of my calories came from coffee and snacking. I notice I didn’t have a lot of vegetables or fiber in my diet that made me realize I was setting up the perfect mess for diabetes, heart disease and being overweight.  I started running/ walking long distance on weekends. This actually helps me get in touch with my spiritual side and relaxed me greatly.

So September I really didn’t lose weight but I think I am off to a good start. I am going to add apples and bananas back to my diet for breakfast and snacks.  I am going to attempt to use the Special K diet for two weeks. Ate least it help me see what works better for me. I am dropping my coffee addiction to once a week if I can stay on task.  No matter what I am adding an extra 30 mins of exercise at the end of the day even after the work out.

*sidenote the Cranberry Walnut Protein Meal bar is horrible to me. I will say this I can’t eat the whole bar so I ate ½ for breakfast and ½ for my morning snack.  It worked I guess, I wasn’t that hungry for lunch and a cup of coffee.